And while I can’t say I was obsessed with the idea of winning an Edgar, I had my hopes. One book I published in the mid-1970s, under a pen name (Chip Harrison) that was also the name of the book’s narrator, was dedicated “To Barbara Bonham, Newgate Callendar, John Dickson Carr, and the Edgar Awards Committee of the Mystery Writers of America.” Barbara Bonham was the chief fiction reviewer for Publishers Weekly. Newgate Callendar was the pen name that music critic Harold Schonberg used for his crime column in the New York Times Book Review. And John Dickson Carr, master of the locked room, reviewed mysteries for Ellery Queen’s Mystery Magazine.

I was shameless, and to no avail. Well, not much avail anyway. The book got a mention in the Callendar column, where its dedication was quoted and its literary merits overlooked. Carr and Bonham paid no attention, and when Edgar time rolled around, Chip Harrison was left out in the cold.

But a year or so later one of my Matthew Scudder novels, Time to Murder and Create, picked up a nomination for Best Paperback Original. I went to the dinner somehow convinced I was going to win, and I didn’t. Someone else did. I sat there stunned, barely able to assure people that it was honor enough merely to be nominated.

A couple of years later I was nominated again, this time for Eight Million Ways to Die, short-listed for Best Novel. “Honor enough to be nominated,” I muttered and went home.

It took years for me to realize what was holding me back. It was, quite simply, a curse.

The curse of Amontillado.

I realized the precise dimensions of this curse only recently, when Charles Ardai was editing an early pseudonymous book of mine for his “Hard Case Crime” imprint. He pointed out that I’d referred to “The Cask of Amontillado” as having been written by Robert Louis Stevenson. Gently he asked if my attributing Poe’s story to Stevenson was deliberate, indicating something subtle about the character who’d made the error.