But now, at least, I could no longer doubt the reality of The Club, and the wild and bizarre things which happened there for the amusement of its members. And I could become a member of this fantastic institution! And most important of all, I was RIGHT NOW a guest there with all the facilities of the place at my disposal! All I had to do was ask and I could have for my sexual pleasure almost any imaginable partner and situation.

I felt a wonderful inner excitement churning up within me, a combination of sexual anticipation and a deep emotional fulfillment. I gripped John firmly by the hand and tried to show him my heartfelt appreciation of the opportunity he had opened up for me. I knew that he had done me this favor at least partly to insure my business loyalty to him, in the same sense that he would buy me drinks at a bar or give me theater tickets to a hit show, but I also knew that it took trust and sincere friendship for him to reveal in detail his own sexual abnormality and to provide me with the chance at such satisfying fulfillment for mine.

“John, I can never repay you for introducing me to this wonderful place. You were completely right in guessing that little girls were my weakness, even though I have never been able to do anything about it, and hadn't even admitted it to myself until a few years ago. If this place gives me a chance to bring to life some of the fantasies and daydreams I've had about enjoying children sexually, I'll be forever in your debt. Your secret and the secrets of this club will be safe with me, of course, because to reveal them would also be revealing my own idiosyncrasies and laying myself open to terrible punishment from the authorities as well as from society.” I paused, trying to convince him of my sincerity and appreciation. Then I continued tensely, “And did you mean it when you said that tonight, this very evening, I can have a little girl as a sex-partner? Like in the catalogue pictures?”