She finished her wine, barely noticed when Megan refilled her glass. “He wanted to sleep with me before we were married.”

“Did you ever-”

“No. Never.” More wine. She was a little bit sleepy now, her eyelids very heavy. But she felt warm and comfortable in a way she had not felt in far too long. She was completely at ease now. The full night’s sleep, the good day of work at the shop, the sale of the black lacquered commode, the dinner, the presence of Megan, the wine “I should have,” she said suddenly. “I should have slept with him. Then maybe I would have known better than to marry him. But I was a scared little girl and I held out for that wedding ring, and we were married, and the wedding night was a fiasco. It was terrible.”

“Don’t think about it,” Megan said.

But she couldn’t help it.

She remembered that evening all too clearly. First the wedding, with no family present, just a scattering of his friends and those few acquaintances of hers from the office, and two school friends of hers who had also wound up in New York. No one else.

An afternoon wedding. A shower of rice, and then the trip in his car, speeding north out of the city and into Connecticut. He had arranged it all, had made reservations at a lodge called Hadrian’s, had planned everything without consulting her to any great degree. And he drove quickly, purposefully, as if he could not wait an extra moment to get her in a bedroom and steal her virginity.

She was terrified. She sat in the seat beside him, scarcely listening to the words he spoke, her mind on the night ahead of them. He would make love to her. They would be in a room together, shades drawn and door latched, and she-his wife now-would have to let him do as he pleased with her. At school she had known girls who let boys make love to them, but she had never been one of those girls. She did not know what it would be like and she could not imagine it without fearing it.