"Yes, John, I'm awake…".

I could see the shadow of his body in the pale moonshine shooting through our window. He sat down on my bed, facing me.

"Mom, are you still mad at me?"

"Oh..no John, how could I be mad at you? Why do you think that?"

"Well…after you know…what happened at the lake, you haven't talked to me…or… anything…you don't even look at me…"

"Come here John.", I sat up in bed, and hugged him motherly, as I had done for so many times, only this time I felt other strange feelings overwhelm my body than just motherly love. Oh how I wanted my son, the man that I had given birth to, the man I had nursed, the man I had washed and taken care of. The same man was now driving me crazy with animal lust, feelings I couldn't show to my son. I wanted him, but at the same time I knew how wrong it would be…

I hugged him closely to me, rocking our bodies, feeling the warmth from his chest spread to my breasts through my thin night-gown and my son's payama, my nipples getting erect.

"No, my son, it's not that I'm mad at you, it's just that…what happened at the lake today shouldn't have happened. It was bad of me to let things get out of hand. Maybe it was the wine, I don't know really…You're big enough to know about what happened today, to understand that a mother isn't supposed to do such a thing to her child…it's bad. They call it incest, something forbidden by law."

"But mom, you didn't do anything to me, it was something that just happened…I wanted it to happen to, it's really my fault, and I'm sorry you're mad at me…"

"No John, at that moment I wanted it to happen, but it's a bad thing to want that. But you see…it's been..an awful long time since I've been with…someone…a woman needs a man, exactly like a man needs a woman…I guess I got too crazy to think… I'm not trying to excuse myself…I know I can't…but I just want to…to