something but she didn’t want anything out of it. I couldn’t decideto be overjoyed or devastated but you can be assured that I had asmile on my face every time I thought of what she said. She told methat she was scared. Scared of how others looked at her. Lookingback now, I realize that she could never love me. She was ahypocrite. All those words about how it didn’t matter when you werein love and scolding all the girls who could not take it. She wasone of them.

I was blinded. I couldn’t see whatwas in front of me and I thought I could change everything. Boy wasI wrong. Did I actually think I had super powers or something? Noway in the world could I ever change her mind. So what if I wantedher to accept me? What I want would never be what she’d do. Well, Icontinued to wait. Continued to beg, continued to act like a loser.All I got back was her toying with me. Time after time. Telling meshe knew what she wanted and then going back on her word the nextday.

Eventually I stopped. I didn’t stoptelling her what I felt. I just stopped asking her to give me achance. I gave up but at least I put up a fight. This is my mottoin life ‘If you don’t fight for what you want, it will never betruly yours.’ Even though I didn’t get what I wanted in the end, Istill feel proud of myself. You can’t have everything in lifeanyways.

Though I sound like I’m over it, itdoesn’t mean that I don’t hurt. I still do. When I think back onhow someone else has taken my place. How someone is more importantthan me. How she misses that person before that person has evenleft the country and how I got nagged at for even passing a commentabout that person. I guess that’s how life works doesn’t it? Thenew replaces the old. I don’t mean that in a bad way but sometimeswe just need to know when our time’s up.

Now it’s the end of our story. We’regraduating and maybe I won’t see you. Maybe after you read this,you wouldn’t want to either. But either way, I just want you toknow that just because you forgot, it doesn’t mean that I did andmy promises will stand until I die. I love you. As a friend, analarm clock, as a person who’d be there for you always.