
Sometimes I can see what they are wearing underneath. The woman with a sleeveless white shirt and the bra strap that keeps slipping onto her shoulder. It is gray-colored, stained by wear. She put on a clean shirt but didn’t bother about her bra. She thought no one would notice. I notice these things. The slip under the hem. The chipped nail varnish. The spot they try to cover with makeup. The button that doesn’t match. The smudge of dirt, the grimy rim of the collar. The ring that’s got too tight with years, so the finger swells around it.
They walk past me. I see them through a window, when they think they’re alone. The one that is sleeping, in the afternoon, in her kitchen, in the house down the quiet street I sometimes visit. Her head hangs at an awkward angle-in a minute she will jerk awake, wonder where she is-and her mouth is slack and open. There is a thin line of spittle on her cheek, like a snail’s trail.
Getting in a car, the dress hitched up, a flash of underwear. Dimpled thighs.
The love bite under the carefully arranged scarf.
Pregnant, and I can see the tummy button through the thin material of the dress.
With a baby, and there are milk stains on the blouse, a tiny patch of vomit where the baby’s head lolls on her shoulder.
The smile that shows the swollen, receding gums; the chipped front tooth; the porcelain cap.
The track of brown down the parting in the blond hair, where the dye is growing out.
The thick, yellowing toenails that betray her age.
The first sign of varicose veins on the white leg, like a purple worm under the skin.
In the park, they are lying on the grass while the sun beats down on them.
