I don’t need to arrive at his house thinking that Paul was a great guy after all, and I pour out my bourbon and Coke in the sink. I decide to

shower and get out of the clothes I’m wearing today. Friday night.

Nobody in eastern Arkansas is wearing a suit unless he or she is getting married tonight or buried tomorrow. As I place the pants and jacket on a plastic hanger, I am reminded of Amy, who bought this suit as her Christmas present to me for my rape trial in Fayetteville. She is probably feeding Jessie about now. She is delightful and fundamentally a good person, but all those nudes! What is that about?

Sex or art? If Sarah comes home for Easter in her Volkswagen with a trunk full of photographs of herself wearing just her birthday suit, what will I do? Shoot us both, probably. In the shower I look at my shrunken penis and marvel at its capacity to get me into trouble. Such an ignoble-looking piece of equipment, and, to my mind, visual refutation that humans are somehow endowed with some kind of special nobility among the animal kingdom.

Ten minutes later, wearing a pair of khakis that aren’t too badly wrinkled, I ride into town and eat at Charlie’s Pizza, an establishment whose most inviting feature, among all the computer games, is an old-fashioned pinball machine. I resist the urge to play it, preferring not to call any more attention to myself than I already have. Of course, I might as well be wearing a neon sign around my neck. Everyone in here, no more than twenty, and mostly teenagers, is obviously a regular. When I was a kid, Friday night in February meant basketball. I guess it still does, and with all the private schools in the Delta, sports are almost as segregated as they were when I was growing up. Integration was supposed to bring us together; arguably, nothing has driven us further apart.