The room is dim. Henry always keeps it that way when he’s seeing patients. It’s interesting to him how few seem to notice it. He thinks it’s because their states of mind are so often dim to start with. Mostly he sees neurotics (The wood’s are full of em, as he once told Jonesy while they were in, ha-ha, the woods) and it is his assessment-completely unscientific-that their problems act as a kind of polarizing shield between them and the rest of the world. As the neurosis deepens, so does the interior darkness. Mostly what he feels for his patients is a kind of distanced sympathy. Sometimes pity. A very few of them make him impatient. Barry Newman is one of those.

Patients who enter Henry’s office for the first time are presented with a choice they usually don’t register as a choice. When they come in they see a pleasant (if rather dim) room, with a fireplace to the left. It’s equipped with one of those everlasting logs, steel disguised as birch with four cunningly placed gas jets beneath. Beside the fireplace is a wing chair, where Henry always sits beneath an excellent reproduction of Van Gogh’s “Marigolds”. (Henry sometimes tells colleagues that every psychiatrist should have at least one Van Gogh in his or her consulting space.) Across the room is an easy chair and a couch. Henry is always interested to see which one a new patient will choose. Certainly he has been plying the trade long enough to know that what a patient chooses the first time is what he or she will choose almost every time. There is a paper in this. Henry knows there is, but he cannot isolate the thesis. And in any case, he finds he has less interest these days in such things as papers and journals and conventions and colloquia. They used to matter, but now things have changed. He is sleeping less, eating less, laughing less, too. A darkness has come into his own life that polarizing filter-and Henry finds he has no objection to this. Less glare.