
Carver sipped his wine, setting his knife and fork aside. ‘I ate a big lunch,’ he lied. How would their marriage withstand his blowing the whistle on her father? Her mother had died when Jane was fourteen and practically from the time she was sixteen until their marriage – and even after – Jane had been at her father’s side at all the charity events he’d sponsored and hosted, which were literally beyond count. The feeling – the bond – between father and daughter was umbilical. Jane, whom Carver sometimes thought to be even stronger than her father, would be the person to despise him the most.
‘I don’t ever remember you like this!’
‘Trying to sort out one or two things in my mind. Making choices.’
‘Involving me?’ she asked, with coquettish confidence.
‘You know the answer to that.’ He smiled back, trying to match her lightness. There was no feeling of hypocrisy or guilt, both of which he’d long ago rationalized, as he had all the uncertainties about morality.
John Carver was not a promiscuous man: indeed, he’d sometimes considered himself undersexed. His affair with Alice was his first and he was sure it would be his last. And hopefully lasting. He’d never consciously set out to seduce Alice Belling, nor she him. George Northcote had introduced them when Alice had come for the first interview session and he’d asked Carver to handle any subsequent questions, which he did on three occasions, twice over lunch. The fourth occasion, at her apartment on the West Side, had been to read the finished article, which was immaculately factual and in his opinion brilliantly written, which he told her, and her intended joking kiss of gratitude had become something more when he’d inadvertently turned towards her. She’d said, ‘Why did you do that?’ and he’d said, ‘Why did you do that?’ and they’d kissed again, intentionally this time, and after they’d made love they’d solemnly agreed it was one of those unexpected, accidental things that had been wonderful and should be immediately forgotten. He’d telephoned the following day and they’d lunched together and gone to bed together and the excitement – the flattery – of his first sexual dalliance had become a deeply loving affair.
